oh how tragic this is.. school is starting once again. back to my miserable routine once again. i've to wake up at tt miserable hour, dress in my miserable sch u, sit at the same ol' miserable bus stop, wait for that miserable bus, taking tt familiar and miserable 132, arrive at the miserable gate. on top of that, i've to go to my miserable class on some unknown and miserable level hidden in some dark and miserable corner. and all i can do is stare at tt miserable dark sky at 7.38am waiting for our brother to start our miserable day. oh how tragic. the thought of it just saddens me. it saddens me badly. *starts EMU-ing around*
service yesterday was fantasic! i could see the immense effort they've put in the deco, the production and everything else. the music was great too. i must say for those who hasnt gone to service yesterday, u've missed out a whole lot. aniwae, had our xmas event after that at a tea house. seriously speaking i wasn't even half filled when i left. haha. but that's alright. the gathering was more than enough to compensate for the lack of food. went chilling with rachel, sunny and freedy thereafter. it was.. mm.. relaxing but expensive. haha. such a eventful day it was. but it only leaves me with a sense of emptiness when i woke up the next day at 3pm. i don't believe this. it's christmas eve and when i woke up no one was home. i thought we were supposed to have some relatives reunion as mentioned before. so i waited. and guess what, it didnt come to past. haha. not as if im really looking forward to it, but at least it fills me for the day. my parents returned from god-knows-where and said they've decided to not go for the reunion because they were tired. it was already evening so i thought i might as well just stay home for christmas eve feeling like a betrayed loser. but gee. dont get me wrong. im not disappointed. just bored. i guess my mom kinda tried to compensate by whipping up some elaborated meal, as much as her skills allow tt is. haha. it was great nevertheless. i enjoy today anyhow, listening, watching, strumming, playing, sleeping. what's more relaxing than this.. but let's hope tmr be a more interesting day.
just bought a cap. i like it. it hides me from half of the world. though it restricts my vision but at least i can mask myself from society. aii gosh. what kinda emo kid am i?? hahaha! but seriously the feeling is great. if u wanna cry u can just bend low and sob. if u wanna giggle u can just do it. lol. weilun agreed with me! :D:D:D LOL. okay. wadever.

aniwae. went evaxing with the sa dudes today. gawd. nobody responded again. WHY! it angers me and makes me wanna rebel. defiance. GRR. i stayed around potong pasir for a while after they left just to wait for a miracle. then i went to dhoby gaut alone to study. yihui n weilun joined later on. hmm.. i finally finished one topic. haha. after one whole month. someone congratulate me. left for home earlier than the rest. and.. yup. tt's all. looking forward to tmr for some reason.
oh my gawd. i dont believe this. MY COMP IS SCREWED UP AGAIN! $%#@*& GRRRRRR!!!! if i were to go back to that freak shop it'd be the 3rd freaking time im going back. 3 times in 2 months!! ARGHH. why didnt they do a good job before that? huh huh huh huh! i think i might go down on my own and give that guy a piece of my mind. i feel so mad i can almost bash him up. gawd. some kinda professional.
get out of this place while we still have time

the day started off beautifully with my dental appointment being cancelled. note the sarcasm in that. forget that. went for clc after that and woo.. daniel just blew me away with his style, flare and spirit. seriously. i've sooOoOooOoOoooOooOooOOOOoooooOOOoOoOoOoOoOOOoOOOOooO much more to learn. im truly humbled. *places hands on heart and bow to show sincereity and humility* the delegates came for the class too and sat in for 2 hours. we went shopping and eating after that. haha. it's so cute to see them being awed by every little decoration which i dont even take notice of. we shared over dinner table about hope sg and ks. they probably feel they've learnt a lot in singapore but the truth is i've taken back with me much as well. they've made me see the impact we are making are truly beyond the shores of singapore. yes indeed a global city church. i feel that i've just witness the pioneer batch of hope ks. and i believe with all my heart and soul and liver and kidney and lungs and stomach that a few years down the road the kind of testimonies i hear from ks wont be the same as what i hear now. :D prove me right and blow me away.

get out of this place while we still have time
as i look at you on that day, i feel a tinge of regret and perhaps even guilt. i've no clue as to what made our relationship tilt. i admit i miss the times we had, the fun we shared. yet i cant bring myself to cross the barrier of awkwardness. it is just that everytime our eyes meet, we bounce off each other's gaze spontaneously.it is not as if i am anymore eligible to despise you because perhaps im worse. whatever the case i hope we'd let this just be a passing phase and perchance return to where we used to be.
wada lovely day today. had training but at least i feel rather fulfilled. though i dont particularly love it but i have to say it's better than sitting at home wasting my life away.